you laughed; i cried.

i've forgotten.

2007-03-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

was surfing through a couple of entries i've made in the past and i've come to realise how much i have actually changed (for the worst, actually). maybe it's because i actually think too much these days - making things too complicated for myself to understand. haha. i think i should just learn how to relax.

p.s: there's a reason why i'm not blogging at wordpress. (:
whatever it is, i hope this is goodbye to you, hopefully.

2006-10-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

CLICK THIS

yeah this is the new link. can't be bothered to inform everyone.
so IF you see this, good for you.

2006-07-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

INACTIVITY.
for the new address, ASK ME.

2006-07-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

ha. fatigueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee is killing me.
got to get some sleep.

ANYWAY. I TOLD YOU ALREADY LOR. YOU STILL LIKE THIS. and obviously, i'm still quite angry with you.

2006-07-09T05:33:00.000+08:00

haha it's about 5.30am now and i still can't get to sleep. and it's only because i slept for a few pathetic hours in the afternoon. the two of us are beings idiots on msn by asking each other to sleep. i think in the end, i'll be the one who sleeps first. it's always like this de. your fault. so childish for what? :x

was blog surfing just now. chanced upon one of my primary school classmate(jan)'s blog yeah. by the looks of it, she isn't that happy now. i hope she gets better. cos she's this girl who's always so darn happy over i-don't-know-what. but now, *sigh* ha. yang li bing forever? lol.

5.33!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOO. btw, i might shift to wordpress. then i can release the url to everyone haha. cos it allows the locking of only certain entries. AND YOU CANNOT HACK THE PASSWORD. SOOOOO THERE'S NO POINT IN TRYING. i'm only targetting ONE person here. haha you know who you are. you evil monster.

a little incoherent now. ha. okay shall try to sleep now.
and you better sleep earlier also!

2006-07-08T15:17:00.000+08:00

everything's been so sad lately. :(

2006-07-07T22:36:00.000+08:00

the disappointment sunk in after i saw that AO on my script. sian lor sian. grades dropped a hell lot. but i don't think i'm planning to do anything about it. honestly, i'm a little more confused over why someone can actually fail after putting in THAT much effort?

s51 needs to die soon. i think we're getting too complacent. but we wouldn't die until that retarded bitch of a new econs tutor dies first. crazy. know us for less than an hour, then act like she's damn friendssszxzxzxz with us already. fuck off can. still dare to mix languages and talk to us.

you're not that cute. you're not that young. in fact, you're not anything other than some erm. horizontally UNchallenged person with a brain for econs. you tell me useless things that i don't need to know and don't want to know, HAHA. i'm not put off by your comment about me; i'm put off by your attitude: it stinks and i won't accept it. (:

this is the first time i'm getting pissed off with a tutor...all thanks to some weird lady (a little apprehensive about using the word 'lady' here). i'm starting to think that i really have this affinity for weird people. WEIRD PEOPLE, SHOO. STAY AWAY.

OH. SORRY FOR MAKING YOU WAIT THAT LONG AT YCK THE OTHER DAY! i swear it was some miscommunication thingy. and i will get the stuff from you soon la, soon!! meanwhile, stop WOWing and complain that you are sian. cos you don't have school anymore!

yes. time to kick some ass! BYEBYE.

2006-07-05T20:17:00.000+08:00

fucking pissed now.

2006-07-03T02:03:00.000+08:00

to the person who said "haix" to me a lot of times the other day:
haha. i'm still trying to not care that much leh. but i don't think i can. you better kill me. later i give you more things to sigh about, then, you go crazy. haha. ahhhhhhhh! shou bu liao wo zi ji. haha. don't worry, i won't get suicidal :x meanwhile, you don't die. crap more!

****************************************************************
my productive sunday was spent doing only one thing. haha. only dalun knows what it is. AND NONE OF YOU CONTACT HIM HAHAHA. with the exception of niang. trying to help someone with econs now though my econ's standard isn't exactly what you render as a pass. xD haha.

siao liao. my post-exam reflections are still haunting me. but it hasn't taken any effect. DIE. no one will know what i'm talking about in this paragraph haha.

i'm becoming more cheena by the way. things are changing for the worst. me no wants become cheena pok like someone. i shall try to cut off all connections i have with chinese. but i know i won't succeed. lol. the irony of the paragraph!

YAY. it must be the lack of sleep that's getting to me now. (note: time now is 2.10am).

p.s: i'll help you hunt for the deed asap!

2006-07-01T12:09:00.000+08:00

today's saturday! haha. this means something to me.
from now on, i shall not waste my time on .................... :) byebye.

THE DAMN HEADACHE.

2006-06-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

i shall be a nice ang ang and do this for you. YOU BETTER THANK ME HOR. cos i don't normally entertain such ridiculous requests. note the 'ridiculous.'

1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY: the blurrest person on earth, mummy!

Favourites
colour: look at my face. you'll notice.
food: anything and everything, excluding the ones i hate.
song: changes from time to time. currently, it's erm. i forgot the title. HAHAHA. but yeah. cow, you know what it is. the one i told you i was addicted to.
day of the week: no day's a good day since the A levels are coming :(
season: no particular preference!

Currents
mood: HEADACHE LA. (see. headache also entertain you. you better be thankful!)
taste: ._. abcdabcd.
clothes: MI's metamorphosis shirt and fbt (as usual)
desktop: "why you say you tell me you dowan tur kua when you didn't say you dowan tur kwa?!" haha. it's from mrbrownshow.com btw.
toenail: you mean there are different types of toenail? i didn't know o.o
time: 10.46pm!
surroundings: erm. there's lecture notes everywhere.
annoyances: THE DAMN HEADACHE!
thoughts: when is this ever gonna end?

First
best friends: the kids that i was really close to in kindergarten. lost contact with them though. aiwwwww.
crush: :)
movie: sorry, short term memory. can't remember.
lie: once again, stm.
music: HUH?! STM!!!!

Last
cigarette: saw/smoked? saw = that smelly uncle who was walking in front of me on the way home today. smoked? NEVER. (so you better stop also. yeah you know who you are).
drink: ribena! without the usual addition cos let me drink finish le
crush: HAHA.
movie: cars.
phonecall: shawn; to complain about my headache and how bored i am
CD played: wow. CD hmm. i think it was FIR? ask me mp3 la. i only listen to my nano now

Have you ever
dated your best friend: which one?
broken the law: is slacking too much a crime? if it is, yeah.
been arrested: jac so guai! bet a lot of you will be coughing by now. especially cow.
skinny-dipped: nah. isn't that against the law or something?
been on tv: hmm. almost. yeah, that adriano (i think that's how you spell his name) thingy.

5 things you are wearing:
didn't i answer this question just now?! WTH. TRYING TO BLUFF ME HUH.

4 thing you done today:
eat, talk, stone, kill 90825903243 brain cells. THANK YOU CHEM AND MATH.

1 thing you do when you're bored:
stone.

5 people to tag: once again, it's no one. i like to spare people from the agony AND horror that my sweet mummy decide to put me through. THANK YOU MUMMY. :/

********************************************************************

yeah. so anyway, as mentioned above, i'm having a terrible headache now.
last paper today. i was like "yay! it's over!" then, i started to think even more. haha. you wanna know, come and ask me, okay? haha. i'll try my best to not say 'nevermind' or 'nothing'. happy?

and hmm. what else? OH YES. i got really traumatised on my way to school the other day. some weird lady just came up to me and start chatting. o.o yeah mummy, that was when i started to message you haha.

lady: school?
me: yeah.
lady: university good?
me: yeah. (i lied! haha. i'm not so academically inclined la)
lady: which one?
me: er..depends.
lady: science?
me: NUS? (that was the only university i could think of at that time)
lady: nanyang?
me: er okay.
lady: you got test?
(i was desperately trying to complete stats on the train then)
me: yeah.

so after this conversation, with me saying less than 2 words everytime i open my mouth, i straight away chiong to pop my earphones back on. luckily, she stopped talking to me.
SCARY. hur i have this high affinity for weird people. raiza says that it's because i'm weird also. i don't agree!!! ha!

time to slack my ass off before i start to not be myself anymore. byebye.

email surprise II

2006-06-26T14:54:00.000+08:00

quite suprised by emails again. this time, it's monisha (moon)! hur. got to know her from the racial harmony anchor event. haha. it's kinda sweet cos it's only a hi-bye affair between the both of us in school.

hur. if really canot fit in, then why force yourself lor. haha.
once again, IIB. DON'T KICK/SLAP/ABUSE ME.

wah all of a sudden, i'm reminded of the stupid racial harmony dance that they made us learn for nothing. :/ mr partner was quite funny to be with during the whole time cos he say he very zibi. and i'm very sociable. then, i very fast make friends that kind haha. WHATEVER OKAY.

hey! i'm not supposed to be online. today isn't monday. i don't have 3 econs essays and 9 chemistry essays to write tomorrow. because it isn't tuesday tomorrow!
time to pia chem.

p.s: wonder what happened to econs? go figure. :D

email surprise

2006-06-25T13:53:00.000+08:00

hur. when i opened gmail, i saw "joel tan." WAH. haha. first time he send stuff to me leh. :/ yeah, that 6.6 kid who went MIA after psle. haha. he's like my long-lost friend. only found him after 4 years. and he happens to be in the same class as cheo. lol.

yeah. anyway, that email. quite meaningful leh. don't know whether you (justina koh man pin) got receive or not haha. that's for putting my full name on your blog. :x blah.

EXAMS BEGIN TOMORROW.
good luck to all the assholes in the world. (:
chah: don't get too stressed. what happened to you again? i'll ask you after the exams are over. don't wanna disturb your revision. SEE. JAC SO NICE. you better agree this time hor. haha.

2006-06-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

i cannot stand you anymore. zzzz.

CHIONG. although i forgot to email you (but you emailed me), you still haven't told me what time you're arriving. IDIOT! -.-"

i'm gonna be MIA these few days.
anything call my house haha. be glad that i gave you my house number now :x

short sentences, yay. i'm in so much pain now.
bye.

2006-06-22T13:50:00.000+08:00

hey! i've just realised that mr thye chee yung is arriving in singapore the next weekend! WE BETTER GO OUT. haha. AND CHIONG. REPLY ME LEH, DAMN IT. what time are you arriving? so i can start msging you crap messages again. lol. like we always do hahaha. ah. shall email you after blogging haha.
WE MUST PLAY. cos my exams will be over by then. *YAYYYY!* although it doesn't matter cos i'm planning to slack. like pia and read one day before any paper haha.

i've been denying the existence of something recently. feeling a little bit guilty because i lied to these people but i think it's all for a good cause. :) after all, haha. yeah.
maybe i'll tell them the truth, soon enough. i don't know.

YAY! a bit high now. cos i just mopped my room. (i have nothing better to do. anything but mugging)

TOWNING SOON OKAY. like asap, as soon as you can make it that kind.
because it's already on your to-do list!

pixar's short films:
knick knack
for the birds
one man band

haha. one man band :p told you the film wasn't related to the movie but you like don't believe like that. bleah. SLEEP MORE LA.

2006-06-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

blogger is laggy.
and i hate your attitude.

blah. shall carry on with my planned schedule (the one i smsed you lol). bye.

2006-06-19T21:08:00.000+08:00

in some way or another, i'm somehow liable to take the blame for anything that goes wrong. wtf is wrong with this world? i swear i lead a sad life.

mr thomas is damn funny la! lol.
got him to clarify doubts we (bev and i) had on electrochemistry.
everything makes a little more sense now. although it's still ANYTHING BUT ELECTROCHEMISTRY AND BIOCHEMISTRY. haha.

mummy: bio+chem. your favourite. xD

went to check out the teenage icon thingy haha. i realise that someone joins everything but doesn't win anything. maybe they should set up an english version of yong bu yan bai.

MR YAP is cool. hahaha.

2006-06-19T02:45:00.000+08:00

went to freaking stone in some drain at bukit batok today. it went on for about 5 hours or so. i can't believe i didn't just storm out of the place. when i got there, i was so bored. i took out thomas. for the first time this holiday! screw it. i really hate it when they force me to go over there. WASTE MY TIME AH. (although i earned about $10 an hour there lol)

it's weird how i'm online at this hour.
actually, i was already sleeping la. then tmd dunno which asshole (typical one) go and make so much noise. and my stupid brother banged into my room to take stuff. TMD. all never die before.

blah. okay. going off to do some other weird and random stuff already. byebye.
good night.

2006-06-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

i think there's some kinda miscommunication problem.
._.

2006-06-17T19:55:00.000+08:00

i love my absolutely stress-free life.
who am i kidding? :(

2006-06-16T13:13:00.000+08:00

i went down in the end. ahaha. aiyah. some of you should know how i felt about yesterday la. :D yeah. i found out something! but i won't say it here. maybe i'm kinda slow or something because it has been going on since feb. chah should know what i'm talking about haha.

yeah. anyway, nathen was very funny yesterday.

i "enrollled" myself in some radio contest yesterday. kinda glad i didn't win. if not huh, i have to speak chinese on national radio? what an embarrassment. haha. sorry, but i'm really glad. you don't be so sad okay? and you better don't become anorexic, i will REALLY slap you. really.

AND I TELL YOU AH. YOU BETTER STOP SMOKING AH!
still dare to tell me you started since pri.6 -.- tmd.
(see. i told you i'll blog about it. but i didn't put your name. so i guess it's okay ba)

haha anyway. got kinda worried at the bbq yesterday.
you should know why la :D already told you le.

yeah well. time to slack again.
the various paragraphs are for different people hor. so don't understand, nvm.

2006-06-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

i realised that i've been feeding you guys with really short posts. haha. unless you're cow, you wouldn't really understand the past few entries. :D

yeah. kinda stoned a lot today. 3/4 decided not to go for the 2g bbq unless maria manages to sway my decision again tomorrow. haha. there are quite a few reasons why i don't plan to go but i haven't told anyone about it yet. haha.

i can't stand the way people take things for granted. making use of others and everything. this is not only about what happened recently okay. happened to me quite a while ago for a lot of times. it's getting quite stupid because i'm the kind who gives in to requests readily (unless it's really absurd). hur. SOMEONE SHOULD STOP ME.

to mummy: i just realise that by now, you would have already left for phuket :x haha. anyway, i saw your favourite t39 friend yesterday. :D the only one i know, apart from you.

STOP ME; KILL ME.
what a boring day. what a random post.

2006-06-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

i finally pulled out. :) so proud of myself.

2006-06-13T20:48:00.000+08:00

i'm quite pissed off now.
stupid shit's being a bitch. no mood to talk. BLAH. AWAY ON MSN, I SHALL BE!

2006-06-12T13:56:00.000+08:00

i've been quite put off by the state that my room has been in for the past few months. and guess what? i'm actually planning to clear everything up. but it's not like my room will be in any state that's different from the current one. :/ mwahah.

2006-06-11T12:25:00.000+08:00

i feel like i should pull out now.
maybe i will.

2006-06-10T19:40:00.000+08:00

i'm not going for the 2g bbq already. someone successfully psycho-ed me. :)

life has been kinda mundane for the past few days. blah.
jac is bored.
save me from people who love to sing!

ah yes! i keep wanting to blog this: i've never seen anyone so stupid in my life so far. haha.
you should know who i'm referring to. you always know. -.-"

2006-06-06T17:42:00.000+08:00

i suspect that my brother is a bit gay. he's watching cartoon network now lol. ppg btw.

and all the weird people are getting me to call them. :/ although i don't even know them.
WEIRD. time to sleep. overslept on the train. when i woke up, just nice reach novena. haha.

sleeeeeeeeeeepy.
oh yes. before i go off, some toot treated me like an idiot. explaining reaaaally simple things to me. makes me feel stupid. blah. the dumb chicken. omg. cow, you should stop trying to read my mind and stalk me. we agreeing on too many things le. haha.

stupid shawn like forcing me to sleep like that :x got evidence de. haha.

nwahs - i hope john obi mikel will just rot at chelsea says:
NO
nwahs - i hope john obi mikel will just rot at chelsea says:
go SLEEP

FOILED STICKERS. omg. so childish. can't stand you. haha.
time for full time CM-ing (cow's way). byebye.

2006-06-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

sooner or later, i'm gonna get banned from using the computer. and it's not because of my impending exams. :/ weird reason anyway.

haha. there's school again tomorrow.
had a math mock today. stoned quite a bit during the paper. cos i didn't really study (the way i usually study). haha. so i'd better be glad if i can even pass. the holidays don't seem like the holidays. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2006-06-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

math mock starts in another 7.5hours. wish me luck.
cos i didn't study. and i haven't go to sleep yet. so i'll be quite dead tomorrow.

i made it sound as though i wanna do the job of organising. but i don't. i just don't wanna be too straightforward with the people. :/
night people.

2006-06-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

talking to someone online now. haha. does the person care or not? i seriously can't tell. lalala.

this is for someone. you should know who are you la.
i wanted to tell you the url the other day lor. but you wanted to be an asshole and try to search for it. i was really verrryyy angry. told you not to search liao. then you assure me and went ahead to search for it!!!! you better be glad that i gave it to you, okay? :x haha.
and then ah, even if i go, i won't force you to go one la. you don't have to be so nice to me.

called someone today. felt kinda weird. cos i barely know this person. i know the guy for a few days only? for some reason, he keep wanting me to call him. :/

haha. yay! should be meeting xua tomorrow already. finally. hopefully, he doesn't pangseh me again.

2006-06-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

school was tmd boring today. there was this battle within me over what time the lesson starts. in the end, went to school, sat in the canteen. got extremely stressed out. so for the first time ever, i started studying in school. O.O

rot a lot during chem lecture. was hopping up and down the stairs like some idiot.
"CHEM REP........blahblahblah" x 100.
and!!! we were given the 2005 paper to do for the mock. kinda exciting. cos i knew that i wouldn't pass. only knew the organic chem part. haha. biochem? left EVERYTHING blank. how cool is that huh?

so after school, went down to town. I WASN'T THE EMBARRASSING ONE. I SWEAR! got whacked for no reason and imagine some cow putting a piece of styrofoam at her face, and smile. shuffled through art friend for about 500 times. cow finally got the stuff she wanted.

then we went down to.......... cafe galilee. cheapo wanted free soup :x too bad it was minestrone. aha. finding nemo was large. the godfather was erm "smooth." :/ haha. I TELL YOU AH. THE NEXT YOU PEOPLE GO DOWN TO TOWN.

please don't say, "it's kinda weird how i haven't met anyone i know yet." PLEASE DON'T. THE MOMENT YOU SAY THAT, YOU GET TO SEE PEOPLE YOU LOVE. okay, cow loves. :x yawn. actually, i didn't regret going to take the train. feels good to take the train at yck again.

haha. i love yck. i love phs. hopefully, i get to go yck for the next 3 years :D:D:D:D
BYEBYE.

p.s: don't take mrt with cow. you get to see a lot of weird people.
prhase of the day: FACIAL HAIR. lol.

2006-06-01T14:41:00.000+08:00

SUM 41: PIECES.

I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy but no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own

this place is so empty
my thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
sometimes it's so crazy that nothing can save me
but it's the only thing that I have

if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own

I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
nothing could ever be so wrong
it's hard to believe me
it never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own
************************************************************
hahah. i know of someone who, like me, can connect to this song. :D too bad it's something like the type of music that you don't like. awwww. i don't think i should carry on trying to connect anymore. it's a bloody waste of my time. i mean, i CAN (but will not) spend the time mugging my whole life away. beats trying to be an sentimental idiot.

but no matter how many times i say i'm planning to give up. i still can't stop thinking about it.
SHIT.

anyway, was taking a long walk home just now. got reminded of every class that i've been to. 6.6, 1/2 grace, 3/4 grace. erm. okay. all except for the "class" that i'm in now. haha. walked past a block. realised how lucky i am. oh. it reminded me of a chinese lesson that i had with that weird teacher :/ the lesson for losers, me. yeah.

i'm a littleeee more determined to spend my holidays the way i told some people about. wonder if my mother will stop me. against all odds! first obstacle: i must take the initiative. haha.

time to be the CM that people think i am. :)
haha. full-force "mugging"!!!

p.s i need opinions. should i go for the 2g bbq? 15th june. i scared we become super separated again. then there's no point in going.

5/31/2006
7:35:53 PM
ª jaMie ª
must try n make it okie. haha. will miss ur presence

HOWWWWWWW?!?!?! HELP HELP.

2006-05-31T10:51:00.000+08:00

i'm quite shocked. dug and jas just broke up.
eh. i know this bit of information is useless to you. cos you people don't even know jas/know her very well. but just don't tell anyone. if not, jas will kill gou, who in turn, wont talk to me haha.

2006-05-29T02:44:00.000+08:00

having a weird conversation with cow now.
(sorry cow, but i have to embarrass you)

lol. now she's saying something about mona lisa coming to life? or is it furby?!?! hahah. i cannot really decipher. trying my best not to laugh out loud. haha.

yeah. i'm kinda exhilarated because the holidays are here. not that it means anything special since i have to go to school still. seriously, the lifes that jc2s are leading? well, let's just say it's a sado ne. thank god it's only for a while more!

157 Days, 05 Hours, 14 Minutes, 46 Seconds to A levels!
(i'm not that much of a mugger. but i got this from the school's e-learning portal).

off to kill more time upstairs. byebye!

2006-05-28T17:05:00.000+08:00

i've been slacking my ass off for the whole of today. ahahaah. die le.

2006-05-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

i'm actually not in the mood to talk to anyone right now.

went out in the afternoon. quite pleasant haha. bumped into alvin lim at pock kim's palace. :D yeah. got a little pissed off with the school's management. IJC is, by far, the most idiotic school that i've ever been to. and yet, i used to think that phs sucks. USED TO. yeah. but then, it got a lot better. went to walk all over town.

a while ago, some toot called me to cancel everything tomorrow. pissed off again. i'm like this person who wants everything to be reaaaaaally organised. so huh. they organise then cancel. hate it la. better still. they knew beforehand they couldn't make it. and they still fucking agree to it.

damn the people who made me so pissed off today.

2006-05-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

there i was, trying desperately like an idiot to connect to the internet. stupid computer gave me an error message that the lan card wasn't found in the computer. and i had no idea that computers have lan cards (i still don't think they do).

uninstall, install for about a hundred times (exaggeration) and it still didn't work! so i started to click around and i realised that some toot went to disable lan connection. WHICH HAPPENED TO BE THE REASON WHY I COULDN'T CONNECT. bitchy can.

i wanna help my bro but he doesn't care. he drop to NA liao still so slack. ask him to study, he say he have. but then, the results don't show. mind you, getting an average of Cs is not what i expect from someone who used to be from the Express stream. see la. now he become so rebellious. i really wanna kill him already.

tried to help him uninstalling his warrcaft III: FT. hope he doesn't kill me. :x because it's for his own good. yeah.

GP paper was yesterday! haha. for the first time ever, i didn't fall asleep. OMGOMGOMG.
yeah. kinda okay. a little worried about econs now. haha. i'm not her potential student and i will never be. :D i'm feeling kinda bored now. time to be a CM.

p.s: i'm serious about the CM part. but it's only temporary cos i'm bored. lol. and it will stop because of my oh-so-short attention span.

2006-05-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

it still hasn't hit me. it doesn't feel like it's the GP paper tomorrow. i'm still a little apprehensive about going to school. yeah but, i "chose to come to this school." quoted from someone. haha.

oh well. just realise that peiyu's birthday is coming up! haha. so long never talk to her already. wonder how she's doing. haha i only remember a few people's birthday. so if i do remember yours, you should be damn honoured la. cos you know, i'm such a busy person with school and everything. lol.

a lot of random people have been coming to talk to me on msn. :/
people like jestyn (05B13) and jeremy chan. but that idiot "father" of mine. only know how to say hi, wee and hello. what an idiot.

shouldn't be meeting bev tomorrow unless a group of the s51 kids decide to go down to bugis. i won't go down to town to meet you specially. btw, i was asking raiza whether i should start mugging now. she said yes. omg. but it's already happening! cos chickens are stupid CMs. lol. and cows are CCMs.

OMG SHIT. wonder what happened to "i am so gonna sleep at 10pm" vow i made to myself. DIEDIEDIE. hahahaha byebyebyebyebye.

OH YES! i forgot to say something. i met the phs sotong (yilin) on monday! haha. she claimed that she didn't wanna board the train. but boarded eventually cos she saw me. should i believe her? :p

2006-05-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

i'm so fucking tired now that i don't want to go to school tomorrow. but damn, i MUST. spent the whole night TRYING to do math. but evidently, i got distracted.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
BREAKKKKKK. I NEED MY GOD DAMN BREAK FROM SCHOOOOOOOL.

2006-05-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

yet another day of school. it's getting very boring. the same old routine every week. blahblahblahblah. holidays are coming!

yay! my own life; my own pace! gonna love it. ha.
and now, it's time for....

math tutorials. *groans*

2006-05-21T19:42:00.000+08:00

it's only about 7.40pm and i'm tired. problem is, i can't go to sleep because i haven't touch any homework yet. HAHAHA. WHAT A SAD LIFE.

to think cheeky was telling me to jia you for A's :p
btw, cheeky is my in-game friend who's 28. he insists that he's old. but i don't think so. cos, judging by the way he types, i thought he was erm. 14? sotong, don't tell cheeky. :x

2006-05-20T16:52:00.000+08:00

talking to dug on msn now. actually, all of a sudden, he talk to me. o.O haha.
(for those who don't know who dug is, he's xiaogou a.k.a alphonsus a.k.a jas' bf. if you don't know who jas is, just know that she's my crazy dnt partner :D)
someone must kill that jasline seah. slack until cannot slack.

jac - i don't see the need to. says:
jas so free meh? can everyday play -.-
Hi Hi Hi Selling Mesos in maple[Aquila], 1 million = 7 sgd says:
ya loh
Hi Hi Hi Selling Mesos in maple[Aquila], 1 million = 7 sgd says:
everyday skip lectures

too bad no one i know is close enough to scold her. dug won't do it de. haha.
i'm so bored today. nothing to do. going off blogger now. byebye.

2006-05-19T21:29:00.000+08:00

i am giving up. :D i don't see why i should bother myself with you when you don't really care. that's why i don't talk to you anymore. i don't know what to say. cos you'll just give me sian replies. then there's no point in messaging/calling you in the first place!
even if i just keep quiet, you can still initiate chats what. but you don't want leh. so too bad lor. jac isn't gonna care.

aha. directed at someone whom i know, wont even come here at all! because he doesn't have the blog link. ha.

watched da vinci code today. THE CODEWORD ISN'T APPLE.
went to THE CATHAY. quite nice. we got so suaku in adidas that we went into the changing room to hide. because it's really nice there. then we start playing inside. lol. OH YES. SYIMAH CAME ALONG!!! :D:D:D

yeah. dont wanna blog already.

p.s: long john silver's at plaza singapura is really bad. don't ever go there.

2006-05-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

haha eatting butterhead lettuce with apples now. so nice :x
i am damn sleeeeeeeeepy. should be going off soon. sports day is tomorrow! and i'm seriously dreading it.

2006-05-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

lalala. and now i shall blog more normally. just now too tense le :x

i find that people are just so damn hypocritical leh. they scold you when you fail. then they laugh when you pass. WTH LA. i tell you. i'm actually quite shocked that i passed. i never expected myself to ever pass econs. never. actually, i think B and C is a little out of reach for me.

ha. AUNTY STALKED ME TODAY. she was on the same train as me! but i only saw her when the doors closed at bishan. i saw dominic tan too! haha.

2006-05-17T20:13:00.000+08:00

eh. when i read the sms raiza sent to me, i really felt damn disappointed leh. people have been asking me to stop giving in. but i feel as though i didn't start in the first place. i really don't know what to say la. i won't confront you. trust me. after the previous incident, i learnt that confrontation is bad. and i swear i never bitch about you okay. you can ask around. you can even ask chah.

and don't blame raiza. she's just trying to patch things up.
really. i don't know where i went wrong, cos all the while, i was the one sticking up for you when people were bitching about you. i don't know la, okay?
do whatever you want if it makes you happy. because... i really don't know what to do anymore.

life has become so stressful recently. it's actually starting to get quite depressing.
*sigh* i've actually made it VERY obvious that i'm referring to you lor. i think i can only talk to you through here. don't know what's gonna happen.

jac - mehmehmehmeh. says:
you know i dont like tense situations hor.
jac - mehmehmehmeh. says:
then i normally try to laugh it off when it happens
jac - mehmehmehmeh. says:
right?
stamina's running out says:
yup

see. my friend who knows me best agrees with me. so normally, when the situation gets really awkward, i'll just start laughing my head off, hoping that the situation will become more relaxed. guess it doesn't work. (and yes. i ASSUMED that you were talking about me okay? not sure whether it's true or not. if it is, yeah. that's my reply. if it isn't, then forget what i just said.)

bye.

2006-05-16T19:48:00.000+08:00

just had an argument. i'm really pissed off now. WHY DID THE SCHOOL HAVE TO BE SO FUCKED UP AND SEND A LETTER TO MY PARENTS?! fyi, this letter is the cause of all the problems.

i didn't want to take econs one can. my mother forced me to. and my aunt didn't agree with her!!!! when i started failing, all she did was to tell me that econs is fucking easy and she don't understand why i can fail. i ask her simple questions, i.e. what is a secondary bond market?, she say she'll get back to me later. did she? NO. if she's that pro in the first place, she would have already told me the answer straight away.

it's always my fault, you know. i'm not allowed to use the com on weekdays = cannot go mlg do all the rubbish. MY FAULT LEH. she was the one who set that stupid restriction can. then say what weekends can do what. HELLO. I HAVE A LIFE. you want me to fucking do schoolwork from mon-sun? if so, why don't i see YOU going to work everyday.

damn it la. i'm very angry now.
don't try to talk to me about it unless i talk to you about it.
yeah, but cow already knows this. so. ha.

oh, and did i mention that my brother's gaming life is more important than my work? :) she allows my brother to use the computer on weekdays to play. but i can't use it to do work. YAY! by computer, i mean the fucking desktop.
shit la. i hate my life. go to school, stress, come home also stress. tmd can.

2006-05-16T17:29:00.000+08:00

im quite tired today. typing with my head resting on my hand. hur. sleepy leh how? die le la. anyway today's chem test was quite interesting. i wanted to say that it was quite easy. but i didnt. just in case people start bitching about me being a closet mugger and curse me for something that i didnt do.

was actually thinking today, who in the bloody hell will believe that a person doesn't need to study and still pass, sometimes ace, a test? wo bu zhi daooooo. lalala. today i was feeling damn paranoid la. i know i did. but i can't help it! well, i think everything smoothened out by the end of the day. I THINK LA HOR.

wahhhh. i still can't get over the closet mugger thing. there were people who actually got sooooo darn pissed off with me until must bitch about me leh. behind my back somemore. haha. i don't study, i pass.... so what's your problem?! i'm not trying to say that i'm smart or anything but yeah, i pass or fail your business meh?!?!?!?! tmd. oh wait. you CLAIMED that i studied. sorry, i forgot. how you know i study or not huh? (okay la. unless you're this stalker who wants to follow me everywhere i go).

i really wonder. why do you even care so much?
WHY WHY WHY?
thankfully, there is still one person who believes that i didn't study. farharnah. (i think chah also but you never really say :x).

eh. then again hor, why i care so much huh? -.-"
JAC SIAO LE!!!! hurhurhur.

p.s: while typing this entry, i decided to give selected people this blog address.
do you people realise that i'm actually me in this entry? i no longer have to type catiously anymore! :D:D:D so happy.

2006-05-15T21:28:00.000+08:00

hmm. haha. i told two people that i'm changing my blog address. ha.
finally mustered up courage to ask someone about the person's blog today. (if you come here, you will know it's you la). the reason the person gave me was well, i felt that he/she is still bearing a grudge against me. quite sad hor? :(

sorry but i have to like censor the person's name. cos i might be giving this address to more people. then i dont think i can tell everyone everything.

meh meh chi cao. chah will understand. :x meh meh meh meh meh meh.
HAIYAH. anyway, was talking about someone today. then hor! i learnt a lot of things today. really quite interesting. hahahaha. so exciting!

and hema's team got 3rd for relay today! what she told us after her race made me feel really appreciated haha. go hema.
btw, what you did today got me into a dilemma. thanks for nothing. i shall not bother. i shall not care. was talking to pei san today and she said, "you don't live for anyone." really got me thinking. i mean, i stoned a while after hearing the sentence cos i was thinking about it. then she thought i dont understand. then she repeated the phrase damn slowly. -.-

jac looks that retarded meh?! i need no answer to this question haha.
i really must go to some coffee joint to stone. i feel that it's a nice place to reflect/stone. ha. okay. off to kill myself. byebye. :D

p.s: just give me some time. i'll be okay after a while. you'll see.

2006-05-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

ha. was thinking about people who had changed for the worst. i could only think of one person. it's kinda sad now that the person's like this. but i can't do anything. and even if i can, i won't. yeah. some of you should know who i'm talking about. already told you all on msn le. :)

the semi-disastrous day (today) is ending already. and this means that school starts again. tomorrow. i don't like travelling so far for school. sigh. i dread school. school, to me, means pressure from everywhere. can't wait for june holidays to start. then i can do everything at my own pace.

productive and yet, not so stressful. :D
the way they call the midyears is a little worrying. it makes me feel so stressed up. it makes me feel like the A's is only a few months a way. by few, i mean 2-3 months. sigh. and most of the time, i choose to run away instead of facing the pressure. yeah, i'm like the typical singaporean student that the stress management talk guy mentioned.

well well, ain't it sad?

2006-05-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

i feel so wasted today.

2006-05-12T18:34:00.000+08:00

was watching a classic just now. and i like julie andrews! for those who don't know, she's the lead in the sound of music and the grandmother in the princess' diaries. haha. kinda random but yay!

i'm still feeling kinds frustrated. i dont know why some idiots are coming up to scold me. for no reason. cannot take it ahhhhhh. and hor! a few days ago, some stupid gorilla told chah and i to meet up today. BUT NOTHING HAPPENED LEH. i wonder what happened to that gorilla (although i know you're online now). hahaha.

visited someone's blog today. saw some entry that made me feel really uneasy. HA. wah damn irritating la. make it sound all nice and shit. when actually, i think it sucks. (you say i sucks?!?!?!)

hur. okay. shall not dwell on it any longer. byebye.

2006-05-12T10:49:00.000+08:00

i'm trying to be someone that i'm not. haha.
and seriously, i think it's better for me to try and be like this. :)
for the sake of humanity!!! lol.

p.s: the countdown is killing me.

2006-05-09T21:14:00.000+08:00

the whole world is watching with one blank stare.

true enough.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i need to vent my frustrations. but the one person i'm trying to talk to is away!!!!!! (ROBIN AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!)
IOESJFIOEWJFIONEWOEOLNEWSFLEWFLNVFl
today is a fucking ridiculous day for me. everything that's happening just makes me feel so frustrated. the stupid morning sms to scold me. the fucked up bus. the stupid evening call to scold me again. and i also got a scolding at night. EVERYTHING LA. WTF.

i really wanna smash this laptop now.
STRESS METER IS DEFLECTED TO THE RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!! (that civics talk today).
i don't know what to say. i don't know what to do. everything seems so wrong. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. jac. should. just. shut. up.
maybe the world will be a much better place. (I DONT KNOW. IM NOT GETTING SUICIDAL OR EMO. STOP COMMENTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

2006-05-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

you people huhzzzz. please la. learn how to cheer up okay. don't be so sad. everyone around has been so emo lately. it's hard to not be affected haha.

YES BY THE WAY. i'm pleased to inform you people that. actually. i can't think of anything to announce. OH. OKAY. MUMMY IS BLUR. well-known fact, but i decided to be random. also, i'm changing my phone tomorrow. supposed to change today one lorzzzzzz, but then ah. i reached home too late. so it's postponed to tomorrow!

TOMORROW. ha. sleepy.
i've come to a conclusion that whenever the fourgrace "clique" say that they want to watch a movie, it will never happen. REALLY. unless someone is really chao enthu until go and organise.

i'm jumping from topic to topic without stringing anything together because my brain isn't really functioning that well now. today at the STAR programme, there was this math tutor who was really good. haha. not that mine is bad or anything, but yeah. math is fun. (horrrrrr?)

okay la. shall go do other random stuff. byebye.

2006-05-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

today. was erm. bad. to me. i don't know why.
i don't know why i'm typing like this either.

haha. i'm writing really random stuff on msn for mummy. :x lalala. i'm bored. there's school tomorrow. there was sports heats today. there's school tomorrow. and there's school tomorrow. school tomorrow. did i mention that there is school tomorrow?

SIGH. my sad sad life.
k700i's SCREWED. changing to l7. don't like sony ericsson anymore.

not happy huh? FIGHT LA.

2006-05-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

today's a really weird day. after school, raiza and i were walking to the MRT station when we noticed that some guy kept on staring at us. being the innocent little kids that we are, we decided to ignore him.

WHO KNOWS HUH. halfway through to the MRT station, he asked me a reaaaaally weird question. raiza and i were both taken aback. wah. it was really a random question and i'm too shy to say it out here. because if i do, people will start staring at me.

hur. then we went to kiddypalace to check out the price of something. once again, i'm not gonna say what. cos it's damn paiseh. haha.

eeeeeeeeeee. i'm still quite traumatised by that uncle.
si le si le.

a photo from monday! don't bother guessing who these people are. i'm sure you people know already. :D

i love you, you love me. we are one big family. with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you. won't you say you love me too? :D (i know you people do lol).

2006-05-01T10:10:00.000+08:00

abcdabcd.

going out soon. haha. although i'm supposed to meet the fourgrace people at 12.45, i'm meeting shawn for fun to go to town and fix his phone.

yesterday's conversation on the phone was quite funny. it goes something like this. can't remember the exact words though. :D
cow: *in a very serious tone* i want to say something.
i stop talking. then there was this silence for a while.
cow: i forgot what i want to say!!!
then both of us bursts out in laughter.

cow is damn retarded, unlike me. chickens are smart. and cows should stop singing on the phone and kill chickens.

cow: WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP.

2006-04-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

okay this photo is here (deliberately), to show how stupid cow can look. and obviously, i proved my point haha.
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i'm getting so sick and tired of all that's happening. sometimes, i wish i could just run away from everything. i really wish i could. after today, it really shows how much i'm attached to this place. i thought of running away.

i know it's bad but. zzzzzzz. blah whatever okay. i'm at a loss for words.
IT SHOULD ALL JUST END. EVERYONE SHOULD JUST DIE.

p.s: please don't comment unless you think you're really close to me. yeah, you should know who you people are.

2006-04-29T19:51:00.000+08:00

blah. did nothing today.
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got quite pissed off with one game. so i'm starting on another. at this rate, my A levels are going down the drain haha.

song of the day!
city of devils by yellowcard :D

Flying alone, I
feel like I don't belong and I,
Can't tell right from the wrong, why,
Have I been here so long

2006-04-28T15:31:00.000+08:00

everything's been pretty much the same ever since i last blogged, which wasn't really that long ago. oh. but there is one exception. during pe today, we played basketball. i kinda sprained my finger -.- damn pain now. cannot bend. but i chose to keep quiet about it. didn't wanna sound whinyyyyyyyy. lol.

so now, WHAT THE HELL LA. DAMN PAIN LA. it's worse than the case my other finger was in when i landed wrongly for standing broad jump. BLAH. i'm ridiculously tired these days. dunno why. fell asleep on the train home today. on the train to school, i taught someone integration! but the stupid boy don't wanna think about it.

OH! and i saw darren! haha he was carrying a huge pile of books cos his exams coming.
ZHUUUUUUUUU, both cheryl and aline. QUICK GO OUT LA.
aline: stop mugging.
cheryl: start mugging. :D

sleepy. going off to sleep soon. i think i've caught the 'sleep 24/7' disease from someone. GUESS WHO. hahahahahaha. too much stress - that's what the pccg lesson thingy said.

yeah. and yesterday, cow and i went down to popular to get this zip thingy for the locker. although we talk to each other for very long hours during and after school, we still can find rubbish to write about and put in that zip folder.

quite crappy hor? lol.
the most happening phrase to say now is: WHAT THE FUCK.
okay. off to type rubbish then sleep. byebye. will try to update tomorrow.
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YELLOWCARD - GREY

Grey skies clouding up the things we used to see with wide eyes
Maybe everything was meant to be this way
Will it ever change
But are we stuck here on our own

It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey

I found telling you the truth the hardest thing to get out
I know it wasn't you that made me feel this way
Will it ever change
Or are we stuck here on our own.

And give it one more try
I don't know if I would stay
I feel so much better now
And baby begging me
Will leave you so empty inside
So you shouldn't even try

I know every last regret inside of me is my own
The way I hold them close has made me be this way
I will never change
I know I'm stuck here on my own, on my own

Given one more try
I don't know if I would stay
I feel so much better now
Where did we go wrong
I know you still hold on to me
But it's time that you let go
I gave you things I had
That I could not get back again
But I'm better off alone

It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey

It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey
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i like this song and it has got nothing to do with what's happening now. i like the 'lights and sounds' album! thank you shawn for passing this album to me. :x

2006-04-26T19:40:00.000+08:00

was online for the whole of yesterday. and i happened to see darren's (my cousin) msn nick. he was advertising for this blog. wah. the girl is super pitiful. life can be so unpredictable at times. BLAH.

haha. anyway, was telling someone to not apologise today. even someone else agrees with me. HA. yay. :D tomorrow's spa. i haven't started studying. don't think i ever will. but that's nothing new. jac doesn't study for anything. i'm a born slacker! whoo.

anyway, happy birthday mei :D i know you won't see this HAHA. but it's here just in case you decide to pop by. (and kill me if i don't wish you :x).

yay. time to sleep. byebye.

2006-04-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

i just gave up doing my math tutorial.
i'm only at Q5.
i'm not really in the mood to do anything else now. blah.

2006-04-25T17:50:00.000+08:00

we talked to mr ng today during and after civics. haha. kinda cleared some of my worries about ermmmm....... :D:D:D

somehow, i think it's impossible to not care (blahblahblah, jac is contradicting herself again). haha. all i asked for was just an explanation! what do you have to take it in the negative way? I WASN'T BLAMING YOU. i was just asking, damn it!

and if you think it's too much for you to take, FINE. SAY IT IN MY FACE LA. you just fucking ignore us even though we're trying to communicate with you. what d0 you want us to do?

just one stupid misunderstanding and everything's so fucked up now.
wahlau. i think the whole world hasn't grown up yet. we're still so fucking childish.

i know you're gonna read this. when you do, just know that i still care. but there's nothing more i can do if you don't. look at the pathetic situation now, i'm sure you don't want it to be that way. if no one's gonna bow down, it won't ever end! that's for sure.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (random word). i think i'm gonna address this situation everytime i come online. EMBRACE YOURSELVES. yeah! i did quite okay for my math test although i didn't study. :D i'm so happy!!!!!! just read my post on OP. :D:D:D

CURTIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s: no matter what the outcome of the match is, please don't cry. -.-

NYP!!!!

2006-04-24T17:17:00.000+08:00

you seem to be so nonchalant about everything. i depserately tried to patch things up. obviously, it didn't seem to work. this is actually the first time i mean what i say when i cursed. it's not like we never tried lor. haha.

okay. wo zhen de zhen de bu yao guan le. it's makes no sense to care about something when the other party obviously doesn't. ha. and btw, what you said really hurt someone. :)

during econs today, i think ms lim keep looking at us leh. cos we never pay attention. but that's nothing new what! i tihnk she's really worried about us or something (cow, don't even bother to comment).

haha. i'm very happy now. cos i just received an email from nyp. :D i emailed them some questions regarding PW grades and the universities that allows degree conversion for occupational therapy. heeeheeeeeeee. so happy.

here goes:
Thanks for your enquiry. Basically, we only look at your academic results from GCE A Levels. Unless competition for places become so strong, we will not look at other requirements.

Many universities offer our students 2 semester for completion of degree.
Among them are:
University of Sydney
La Trobe University
niversity of South Australia
Curtin University of Technology
University of Exeter
Queen Margaret University Colleg
Glasgow Caledonian University

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this definitely brightened up my day :D:D:D:D MY PW GRADE DOESN'T REALLY MATTER. YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

i've been asking some people online about inflammable wicks for spa. in the stupid experiment, there is a kerosene lamp containing methanol. we're supposed to calculate enthalpy change per mole of methanol. but then huh. the kerosene lamp has a wick! and the heat evolved from the wick won't be accounted for. so........ madam ler asked us to research.

i show you some of the responses.
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chah says:
wicks that dont burn?
chah says:
you lorr
chah says:
WICKed jac
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*baby&me <33 <33 w <33 <33 says:
huh
*baby&me <33 <33 w <33 <33 says:
please speak english
*baby&me <33 <33 w <33 <33 says:
lol
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so, i went to wikipedia. typed in "inflammable wick". and guess what i got for one of the result.

FLAMETHROWER!!! HOW THE HELL WOULD A FLAMETHROWER BE RELATED TO WICKS?! therefore, i hereby declare that jac will fail SPA. haha.

2006-04-23T11:32:00.000+08:00

ha. it's hard to forget after what happened. maybe we will just go our separate ways and not care. maybe we will just care more another one another's feelings. maybe maybe maybe. it's better if we're all dead. haha. (note: i am not getting suicidal/emo).

would weekdays ever be the same again? :) i think it all depends on tomorrow.

easy to forgive but hard to forget? maybe. no matter how much we're gonna try, this thing will forever remain in our hearts. ha. just don't think too much about it. ignorance is bliss. de guo qie guo. OMG CHINESE. haha. SOMEMORE IS FOUR LETTER ONE. (not fcuk hor).

yeah. so whatever. like what mummy said (mummy, i think you told me this before), live and let live :D

2006-04-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

i was caught off guard.

i'm at a loss for words. i really dunno what to say liao la. i mean, there's no point in saying anything to anyone when that person is sad/angry/whatever. so i choose to keep quiet. it's no use trying to get to someone when that particular someone just doesn't want to open up. there's really really really no point.

okay. enough bullshit. i gave up going to sentosa today because i find it pointless. imagine going down to sentosa for just a few hours and then the birthday girl leaves, leaving you with people that you don't really know/talk to. that's already a very good reason for me to not go down. and the whole thing was so impromptu, to me. i don't like events to be so disorganised.

i'm impatient. i don't like to wait. but somehow, i'm always late. i'm a walking contradiction.

i don't know what i really think. i don't know what to say to people when they're sad. i just keep quiet. and hopefully, the person won't think i hung up. haha. kidding la, okay? (this paragraph is typed for you leh. honoured?) so cheer up. don't think too much. CHILL, FOR THE 34213th TIME!

ha. somehow, i just keep going back to that dreaded topic. i don't see how running away will solve any problem. you have to face your problems, don't you? like how i faced my fear of heights at that blasted camp last year.

wouldn't it be great if Man were all simpletons? i mean, if we are, we wouldn't have to think so much about how bad this situation is..blahblahblah. instead, we should be like, "hey! let's make the best out of this situation!" i seriously don't know. aiyah.

lost, really lost. oh well. it's my problem. haha. (by this, i mean that i shouldn't be expecting anyone to ask me what happened). really long entry. i know. it's only because of the "big event" that happened today.

p.s: if you're involved, you should know which paragraph is directed at you. if you're unhappy, say it in my face. if you're not involved, go kill yourself because you're too nosey. haha. kidding la.

p.p.s: after reading the colinandwhateverhisnameis.blogspot.com, i realise that gays are actually pitiful. like, they shouldn't be discriminated in the first place. yeap. hooray for people who actually admit that they're not straight.

gonna sleep now. good night guys! :)

2006-04-16T14:41:00.000+08:00

i realised that it's been a week since i last blogged. ha. and since almost everyone blogged about the whole ijc pw saga, i shall not talk about it anymore.

i think i shouldn't really care anymore. it's a serious waste of my time. :D once again, dkdc for another matter. haha.

lol. a few of the four gracians are meeting on the train tomorrow. bao, shawn and jak. been a long time since anyone of us met up. anyway, i think the four grace people did really badly in pw. at least, it's for the majority.

blah. nothing much to say already. i forgot about what made me so angry through this whole week. so yeah. bye.

2006-04-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

ha. tomorrow's my brother's birthday. i got him something that i swore never to get him. i regret. his grades are waaaay worse than mine. and i am, indirectly, contributing to it. blah.

went to pizza hut today to have some "celebratory dinner." lol. ended up feeding nathen throughout the whole session because i have nothing better to do. rather, that kid was staring at my plate all the way. sheesh.

nathen reminds me of jerrold. jerrold the pig. jerrold the idiot who ate 21 tarts at some high-tea session when he was a kid. yeap. my stupid brother.

soooooo, i just found out that i was "miraculously" listed to be one of the organisers for the two grace outing (that i knew nothing about). gee. i got nothing to say la. (once again, i think it will be superultraomg mean to put it down here). haha.

okay, going off to blog at the fourgrace blog now. byebye.

2006-04-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

que sera, sera. righttttt.

sounds so much like "everything is destined to be." sheesh. if it's true, i should stop trying to put in extra effort in completing my tutorials and stuff. since the end result will be the same, i should stop doing econs. hahaha.

if only it's possible.
yeah, i still get worked up over my econs grade. by the way, i had expectations for my block tests after i sat for the papers. well, i missed every grade i wanted. DAMN IT LA. you think i should be glad that i got what i got. but no, I AM NOT HAPPY. i shut up because i don't want people to think that i'm getting complacent or shit. blah.

screw econs.

i've turn over a new leaf. i'm actually starting to do tutorials (completed chem and 3/4 through math) . it hit me when i realised it's already april now. (not that my brother's birthday is on the 10th or anything) but yeah. about 7 more months, which is slightly more than half a year, to the A levels.

oh my god. haha. but then again, chiong's one is coming in 2 month's time. HAHAHA. :x

okay. enough of gloating. going off to do the econs powerpoint now. byebye!

2006-04-01T17:39:00.000+08:00

didnt do pe yesterday. felt really sick. i got the flu bug again. i have got to get well by tuesday cos that's when napfa starts. BLAH. i feel miserable. i was actually okay until the lectures yesterday.

the 2 hours of non-stop air-conditioning killed me. felt really terrible during econs. blah. but i'm feeling much better now. it's just that i dont know whether i should go to school or for lectures on monday. hur. we shall see.

by the way, i slept from 7pm-9am. hahaha. got up at 4 to randomly message someone :x yeah. gotta go watch more of my tvb serials. haha. byebye.

2006-03-30T22:41:00.000+08:00

bolly is desperately trying to search for the sunkist advertisement on the internet. bolly thinks the advertisement is very cute. bolly tries to make me take picture of the advertisement whenever we see it on the train. hahahahahaha. BOLLY BOLLY BOLLY. :x

anyway, my dad was looking for random things to scold my brother just now. stood up for him but ended up getting scolded as well. haha. went to meet aunty today. she told me to ignore some people. lalala.

aunty: i'm trying to. but i can't. haha.

wootszxzxzxz. world war 18613584th is going on again. why can't it stop? *sigh*
and now, again, it's my turn to get scolded. TMD LA.

2006-03-29T20:48:00.000+08:00

MY LATEST TREND.
kidding. lol. it's just an accident.
i forgot to blog about it earlier. so here i am. again.

today, at cross country, i had hema draw a smiley on my arm that goes like this: (:
then, after the event, i washed my arm at j8. GUESS WHAT!

i have a new tan line on my arm. the smiley face. sheesh. if you stare hard enough at my right arm, you'd see it.

hema also drew 'R' at my face. and i'm not planning to look into the mirror. haha.

2006-03-29T16:54:00.000+08:00

cross country today. all went well although rasalas came in last. but it's okay. we'll catch up. long distance running just isn't our forte. :) haha.

i'm okay la. i sorta cooled down after venting all my frustrations on some post that not many people read. :p yeah. ignorance is surely bliss. that i can safely conclude. got home not long ago. went to stone with chah while waiting for her hockey to start and for aunty to return my 5842412 calls and sms.

aunty: nvm. tomorrow! haha.

2006-03-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

you laughed. i cried. yeap.

i've finally lifted off the script protection but it's not like it worked in the first place. so yeah. i've been experiencing major moodswings these days. but i'm still okay.

i did better than what i did for promos. and i didn't really study. so i'm feeling better.
and hey. look, i'm not trying to show off here. but if you don't like what i'm saying, get out this instant. i don't need shitheads prying into my blog and leave feeling offended. at least, i don't need/want to know what crappy comments you're going to leave.

i'm still kinda pissed off from what happened/did not happen.

2006-03-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

I'M LOST.

i don't know what to do now. don't say i'm too emo. you all don't know what's going through my head at this very moment. and i can't/won't say much here. until i can find the script or find another method to not let people know what i really think.

i'm still living my life as an introvert. once again, i'm back to square one.

(and if i lock this blog, the password might not be given out to people.)

:)

by the way.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI! :)

2006-03-22T14:30:00.000+08:00

POST EXAM UPDATE!

although i didn't really study or anything, i'm still glad that block tests are over! haha. and now, about my chem paper today. i think it was quite okay. the standard of the paper was like the one they set for failures.

AND AND AND! this might be my second pass in organic chemistry! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
well, maybe.

so after the exams, pei san, raiza, syimah and me went to swensen's to eat. we took VERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERY (you get the idea) to decide what to eat. yeah. i think the swensen's girl still looks like the jack's place girl. (JASON!!! but he doesn't come here).

oh yes. i might be locking up this blog soon. as soon as some kind soul teach me how to. lol.
(hint: AUNTY!!!!!!!!!!! THE LOCK. I NEED THE LOCK. you still haven't tell me how!). haha.

IT'S TIME FOR ME TO PLAY. BYEBYE! :D:D:D:D

2006-03-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

oh my god. i accidentally cleared the post. so, for the second time, updates for today!

econs: essay was pretty okay. i think i'd fare better than i did for previous exams. DRQ AND MCQ were killers. mcq was a random selection of alphabets ranging from A-D while DRQ was random sentence construction. hahahha.

maths: YAY LOR. i love math (mummy. ssshh. lol.). the paper was manageable. (except for the proving part). prove that 4cos-somethingsomething = 3cos x. hahaha. oh well. should be able to pass la. the only reason why i'm so confident is because i haven't really fail any major exam for math. that is, if you exclude A math. i failed A math until the prelims. haha. F9 all the way!

btw, my uncle just sent the john sloman 6th edition over. which means, i now have both the 5th and 6th edition FOC! don't you just love people with PhDs for econs? :x and don't ask me why i'm like this although i "have the econs genes" in me. that's what my uncles and parents said to me. i wonder why too. WHY WHY WHY?????

okay. and now, it's time to hang myself with my chem notes. BYEBYE.

2006-03-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

oh dear. it's closing in to 7pm and i haven't started mugging. no inspiration to actually start reading my notes or slap myself awake. (although i do realise that the next exam comes in around another 13 more hours' time).

DAMN IT LA.
NO MOOD. LET ME SCREW UP JUST ONE MORE TIME PLEASE.

haha. you know i'm joking.
do you?

thinking back, i've never ever gone into a math exam not feeling confident. I MUST NOT GIVE UP! (but i think i will).
and here i am, contradicting myself once again when i'm supposed to be studying. YAY!

2006-03-20T13:38:00.000+08:00

couldn't get to sleep yesterday. was looking forward to sleeping on the train when i sat beside someone who smelt like gunpowder. I AM SERIOUS. so throughout the whole ride (from braddell to woodlands. JUST IMAGINE), i had to endure with the smell. for those who don't know, my nose is damn sensitive. sulphur dioxide from sec 1 or 2. omg. -.-

yeah. so i was quite sleepy when i reached school today. which explains why i almost walked past farharnah and cow without noticing them. and yesterday night, i had a random thought. i wanted to roll down the stairs and get myself injured so as to not sit for the exam today :x haha. too much exposure to insanity from the cow. i'm becoming more and more random.

and about the GP paper today, they gave us the 2005 paper1 questions. THEY PHOTOCOPIED THE EXACT SAME THING. but i was a little stoned during the paper. didnt know what to write. THEREFORE, i ended up writing rubbish that didn't really make sense. i think, what i wrote has no relation to the question lol.

yeap. sleepy again. havent started studying for econs/chem. only flipped through integration for math. DIE LA. and someone from S53 actually told me that the boderline cases will be retained. don't know whether this is true or not cos the tutors haven't really mentioned this to us before. hmm. oh well.

time to erm. sleep-read. byebye :D

2006-03-17T16:14:00.000+08:00

hmm. for the past few days, i have been slacking. yesterday was the most productive day i had! in the morning, i went online and talked to someone. the person immediately tried to shoo me off to study. so sad. but i managed to stay onilne until 6pm? hahahahahahaha.

so, i realised that i had a chemistry mock the next day. attempted to cramp the whole of organic chem into my puny little brain for around 2.5hours. that's all i did. SO PRODUCTIVE. yeah well, i passed the mock! YAY! MY FIRST PASS IN FUCKINGORGANICCHEMISTRY. woohoo.

but then. i forgot everything liao. :) yeah. time to sleep. been feeling kinda groggy these few days. must be too much computer. (but who cares?). byebye.

2006-03-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

IT DID NOT HAPPEN.
I AM MAKING MYSELF BELIEVE THAT IT DIDN'T.

:O:O:O:O

well, er. for those who are closer to me, try asking. i won't really put it here cos i know that people are watching. hahaha.

anyway, after econs today, a group of us went down to woodlands library to erm "mug". i realised that a lot of phs people love it there. saw quite a few people on my two trips there. hmm.

yeah so, went down to bishan to catch FD3. the movie was kinda gross. YUCKS. and someone tried to prevent me for covering my eyes. sheesh. GROSS. and erm. there was this couple there. hahah :x cow. you should know la hor. don't wanna say it here. don't wanna say what you said to me here. (by doing so, i just saved your reputation).

P.S: i know i don't get scared at horror movies. but erm. those gruesome movies are just not for me. lalala. BYEBYE.

2006-03-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

IJC GOT SMASHED BY RONIN TODAY.

okay. the school didn't really get smashed. everyone was so dead. i wanted to be damn enthu but i felt a bit weird. maybe it was because they did the gig in acoustic. BUT STILL! ronin leh! yeah. bought their album. QUITE NICE :D

local bands reminds me of electrico. then two grace. two grace. zzz. not gonna plan anymore stuff for that class. it's getting stupid. it's always the same old clique, leaving the rest out. no point. maybe this is why i'm starting to be so quiet in the blog. i'm usually one of the more active bloggers/taggers there. maybe.

oh. I PASSED MY FIRST/SECOND ECONS ESSAY TEST! haha. REJOICE!

2006-03-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

okay. so i'm partially done with my homework. don't wanna do anything liao. cannot think. no brains. somehow, i think the second batch of j1s are quieter. haha. maybe it's because of the orientation that they have. i just have this feeling that the events are more or less last minute.

haha. BUT BUT BUT. there's this really cute person in this batch. lol. cow, you should know who i'm talking about. :D sooooooooooooooooo cute. cow and i were walking all over the parade square (before assembly) and in the canteen (before civics) just to look for this person.

FUNNY. this is gonna turn into some kinda obsession.

anyway, after school and everything, pei san, raiza and i went down to cwp's mac to do tutorials again. i swear i'll write the 'thank you' card for that counter guy soon. :) hmm. i must at least start to read my notes. soon enough.

today's another pau day! byebye! :D

2006-03-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

HOOBASTANK: SAME DIRECTION.
Whenever I step outside
somebody claims to see the light
it seems to me that all of us
have lost our patience
cause everyone thinks they're right
and nobody thinks that there just might
be more than one road to our final destination

But I'm not ever gonna know
if i'm right or wrong
cause we're all going in the same direction
and I'm not sure which way to go
because all along
we've been going in the same direction

I'm tired of playing games
of looking for someone else to blame
for all the holes in answers that are clearly showing
for something to fill the space
was all of the time I spent a waste
cause so many choices point the same way I was going

But I'm not ever gonna know
if i'm right or wrong
cause we're all going in the same direction
and I'm not sure which way to go
because all along
we've been going in the same direction
going in the same direction
same direction (same direction)

So why does there only have to be
one correct philosophy
I don't want to go and follow you
just to end up like one of them
and why are you always telling me
what you want me to believe
I'd like to think that I can
go my own way and meet you in the end
go my own way and meet you in the end

I'm not ever gonna know
if i'm right or wrong
cause we're all going in the same direction
and I'm not sure which way to go
because all along
we've been going in the same direction
going in the same direction
going in the same direction
same direction (same direction)

-----------------------------------------------------
old song. i know. haha. kinda reminds me of all the lost souls out there. people who can't seem to find their true self among others. right, aunty? :) was thinking about what i've heard recently when this song started playing. the news came as a shock. guess no one expected it. not even me.

oh well. let's hope these people find themselves. someday, somehow.
haha. and i'm not depressed, okay? :) don't get yourselves worried. one depressing post and i have people asking me whether i'm okay or not. haha. at least this shows that you guys care. probably.

i've been getting straight Fs for all my tests. i guess i have no one else to blame. MUST. RESIST. PRESSURE. FROM. PEOPLE. TOO GREAT! this just goes to show that jac doesn't excel without studying. okay. pass without studying. breaking assumptions! (OH CRAP. third person speech again! haha.).

yeap. time to sleep. (even before doing my tutorials). haha. byebye people.
P.S: THERE'S PE TOMORROW!

2006-03-04T11:58:00.000+08:00

chah says jac should not dkdc anymore. haha. i'm actually back to my normal self la. come to think of it, i started learning how to be zibi at the first quarter of last year. AUNTY ALSO! (i think you should know what i'm referring to). haha.

yeah. i feeling very okay now! my mother says i can go over to australia. :D after my poly. this meanssss that all i have to do now is to get the grades. yay! curtin! fyi, i've been trying to go to curtin even before O levels. and i'm only in a jc now because NYP requires a A level cert with a science subject in it. lalala. so it's jc, nyp then curtin for me!

also, i realised that i've been "cheated" by these educational institutions for 2-3 times haha. but it's okay. it's too late to do anything now anyway.

oh yes. met a number of people at city hall and town. (4 of us went to town after the whole thing). saw shaun (pang), gladys who didn't recognise me, jian ping, etc. can't remember anymore. haha.
ah! i saw andy also! haha. i just found out that he got into NTU's engineering. why is everyone so into physics?!

off to play! :D byebye!

2006-03-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

Happiness depends upon ourselves.

Aristotle.

maybe i should just set aside all my thoughts for a while and just RELAX. i don't know. maybe it's because of the stupid setback i had a while ago that made me feel so urgh. yeah well, my chinese grade did cheer me up a little. knowing that i can kick his ass for looking down on me! the idiot thinks all of us have to retake chinese. sheesh. oh. and it may also be because of all the comments from people that i'm taking real seriously.

i mean, i may not look serious. but yeah. comments from other people really make me reflect on what went right/wrong. oh well. low self-esteem? maybe. too bad no one agrees with me on this. :)

after a couple of rounds of "STUDY NOW. DO YOUR TUTORIALS NOW," i think it's best i start doing my work. a blunder made me worry a while ago. i thought that the common tests are starting next week. luckily, i found out that i saw the notice wrongly; it's after the holidays.

this got me thinking. IF the common tests are really next week, i'm not the slightest bit prepared. then i got damn stressed haha. (ya. jac is very blur.) so, now, everything people do/say or whatever affects me. YAY!

bbfn. math test tomorrow. so much for hard work, yeah? haha.

2006-02-28T19:27:00.000+08:00

STOP CONDEMNING ME LA, WTF. i know my grades are bad, but do you have to rub it in? damn it. "fail liao hai yao celebrate ah?" I DIDN'T SAY I WAS GONNA CELEBRATE ANYWAY. i swear i won't even bother telling you my grade. whatever authority you hold against me, I DON'T CARE. you have no right to degrade me.

all you do is just to make me feel even more demoralised. whatever i do isn't good enough for you. fuck it la. it doesn't matter to me anymore.

p.s: i've been in a really bad mood for the past few days. everything just doesn't seem right. but still, i'm okay. (: so far.

2006-02-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

i know this is kinda weird but i was damn quiet in class today. dunno what happen to me. mood swing, maybe? i just felt that i should keep quiet once in a while to prevent people from getting too pissed off with me. haha. aiyah. something's just wrong la. yeap.

well, at least i got better upon reaching causeway point. ended up doing the insane math tutorial until liike what? 7.45pm? haha. SIAO RIGHT? i know. and i'm starting to find differential equations really tedious. sigh.

so yeah, if you see me getting really quiet, i dont know. just leave me alone or something. more or less used to the peace surrounding me today. (: and hey! all of a sudden, jac is zi bi. thank you shawn! haha. i dont know. i just realised that i haven't opened up to anyone yet.

people who know me better, ya. i know you can tell. haha. and so far, i think out of all my friends, robin is the one who knows me the best leh. SEE! ARE YOU HONOURED?! and really, i'm not kidding haha. i know you come here one =x i just know it.

lalala. 11pm. bbfn.

2006-02-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

haha. i seriously don't know what i'm doing online at this insanely late hour. lalala. today wasn't as productive as what i had planned out. there were the usual distractions. sigh. haha.

anyway, bev's terribly sick. bah. if you see this, get well soon!
aunty: I AM NOT A POSEUR. really, healthy lifestyle forever.
xua and niang: good luck for exams.
chiong: BLOG, YOU IDIOT!
mummy: RELIGIOUS. hahahaha..
shawn: STOP WATCHING SOCCER and reply me on msn! (and no, i'm not used to it) haha. then again, don't bother. cos i'm going offline already.

this post is kinda random haha.
okay sleeping time! good night!

2006-02-26T14:25:00.000+08:00

please do not be deterred by me when i say i'm gonna study. 99% of the time, i digress and end up doing other random stuff. yeah. so chill.

2006-02-25T11:31:00.000+08:00

it's the 25th already?! this means that block tests are starting soon. haha. i love school. oh. and my plan for this weekends, i think they're gonna go down the drain again. nothing new. went for some stupid lesson yesterday. i still think the teacher looks down on us. explaining words that are reaaaalllyyyyy easy to comprehend.

but really. a short essay. i got a B. mind you, i wrote less than 2 pages. he mark according to what? primary school standard ah? tmd. yeah. so i went home straight after the library closed. and i forgot what i did. haha.

I WATCHED TV. miracle right? :D

hmmm.
note: to those who are trying to contact me, don't bother unless you know my house number haha. till then, it's homework for me. byebye.

kheng cheng school.

2006-02-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

hmm. today, someone was quite tired and pissed off for some unknown reason. SCARY LEH. for the first time ever, i decided to keep quiet and let the stupid person vent her anger (over a piece of paper. -.-) tsk. during chem practical today, i was staring at the piece of graph paper for very long. cos i couldn't get the scales right. ARGH. but, i did manage to complete it in the end. :D with the help of cow washing up after me. haha.

yeap. rushed down after school today. went to shower blahblahblah. met the 6.6 people at toa payoh! haha the "mini" dinner was kinda fun. we had people like yeeleng, jiaquan, justina, jo, yeetung and me! the rest wanted to come down but it was all too last minute.
note: justina and i decided to start this thing during my chem lecture. which is like 8+ in the morning. haha.

well, at least we're meeting again on the 4th of march, i think? 3pm at somerset. think we're going to marche. haha. at dinner just now, we keep talking about the old times. LIKE MRS WONG. haha. that one's a classic la. "what rubbish is this? no meaning!" lol.

and it's bye for now. cos i havent finish an essay outline for MR CHU'S tutorial tomorrow. and i havent studied for the market failure essay test that's happening during lecture.

OH AND I GOT SENT TO DETENTION FOR SKIPPING CHINESE. haha. and this means that i HAVE TO go for chinese lessons tomorrow. SCREW IT.

2006-02-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

today is world scout's day. MY BROTHER IS A SCOUT. and he holds the highest position a student can hold (i think). he's a venture! OMG. my brother the slacker. haha. yeah anyway, he made me wake him up at 6.30 in the morning just to prepare for today.

AND FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME, jerrold phang left home earlier than me! haha. he normally wakes up at the time i leave for school. which is 7am la. SO AMAZING.

oh. another amazing thing that happened today is that: I OPENED MY LOCKER. stupid cow was mocking at me for failing to do so on my previous attempts. HA. IN YOUR FACE! yeap. chemistry test today haha. think i;m gonna do real bad (mummy. haha. quite expected right?)

yeapppppppp. EVERYDAY IS PAU DAY!

2006-02-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

i'm on a kamikaze mission: i'm attempting to study while chatting on msn. lol. evidently, IT ISN'T WORKING. haha. school was quite interesting today.

and it's all because of hema. lesson learnt. never throw your stuff into things you can't see. hema threw her notes over the lockers today lol. somehow, there was this hole in between them and the notes went it. (note: the lockers are wayyyy taller than me. at least 2m) haha. we spent quite a lot of time deciding what to do.

lol. we came up with tons of crappy ideas like tipping people into the hole. it was kinda like "mission impossible" until our dear saviour (some guy from the tech staff?) came over to help us. haha. throughout the whole thing, we were all laughing retardedly.
EVERYONE.

blah. i'm falling asleep already. good night people :D

NO.

2006-02-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

IT IS WRONG to assume that someone will do well without studying! you reap what you sow. haha. yeah. you should know what i'm talking about la hor. i don't see a point in explaining everything ALL OVER AGAIN to ignorant people (by this, i'm not referring to you).

whether it's for fun or not, whatever okay. aiyah. dont wanna say anything liao haha. if not i have to call someone and talk crap again. then the dumb person will just say, "yay can charge my phone tonight." tmd. (you know who you are okay!)

block tests seems to be 1234567years away when i only have less than a month. joy.
"picture your grades. are you satisfied with them?" A DEFINITE NO.
haha. okay. it's time for jac to get serious (at least i think i mean it)! recent test grades are shortening my life span by 213 years. they suck. and i won't get all depressed over it because i know i didn't put in any ounce of energy into studying for the test.

HAH. okay. time to do econs summary before my mother busts me for blogging. byebye.

school concert.

2006-02-18T10:16:00.000+08:00

haha i found out that it's called "love under the stars." the songs were actually QUITE okay la. but wasn't up to my expectations. maybe it's because i was too stoned before the concert began.

why was i bored? i had to wait for !#$% hours to get in. there were so many delays. and i was tired. (don't get me start on how PE almost killed me.) the concert, hmm. i dunno. quite a number couldn't realy sing. and there they were trying to reach the higher notes.

just
imagine.

i can't really say who are the people. cos, it'll be mean! anyway, the lead vocalists of the j1 band, handstanding, are gooooood. yeap. that's all i can say. cos half the time, i was trying to enjoy myself.
note: trying to.

okay. got to go off now. meeting maria for fun-o-rama. haha. byebye. btw, bev cant go! means. no mugging today!

yes, you do.

2006-02-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

everyone knows that you've done something wrong but you just can't admit your mistake. you turn to seclusion. still, no one takes pity on you. that's just too bad.

'live and let live'?
NOT WORKING FOR ME! xD i CANNOT stand the way she treats people. it's getting on my nerves already. you claim that we're mad at you for some stupid reason. some reason that i don't even care about. sheesh.

OKAY. about tomorrow, ijc's having this "somethingsomething under the stars" concert by our very own JAMMING CLUB. they call it the musician's club but i can't relate rock to musician. to me, musician is like a violinist or something lol.

ya okay anyway. i just remembered that i have to erm "STUDY!!!!" for my integration test tomorrow. if i fail again, mdm chan is gonna call my parents! haha BYEBYE.